SHIT

Sunday we get a phone call... this is what is said... "Mat u owe me money for the system i let u buy off me. ur supposed to be my brother and not screw me over." so what does mat say?? this is it--> "Josh i aint got it right now" Josh says: "Well where are u at?" Mat; "Im in kalamazoo for a birthday parrty for cody" Josh: "Kay well then im on my way to ur house and ima steal your laptop and all kinds of shit in your house to get my money back" HAHA mother f(_)cker we were home... So he comes in MY house and tries telling me i owe him money and all sorts of crap and i am like "Josh i dont owe u sh!t... i sure as heck didnt getnothing from u, i didnt even want them speakers in either of our cars so to me idc... but i know I dont owe u anything" and so here he goes... " Oh yah bitch leave your house and i am going to steal that pretty laptop of yours and bust your stuff and blah blah blah..." So i say "okay go ahead... im not effing scared.. go ahead take it... as a matter of fact take itnow.." does he?? No cuz i wasnt playing i was heated i felt my body get hot.. so... he gets mad cuz i told him keep threatening me and ill call the cops... So he gets mad cuz i said i was going to call the cops swung my door open and breaks my railing on the steps and says "Bitch ima kick your ass" and all this crap talk... so mat gets up and says leave josh get off my property... well i am not liking the way cody is freakingout (yes he did this is my house with my child sitting rt there who doesnt EVER see violence) so i called the cops. yupp i did cuz this is my property and i have EVERY right! so after i tell him im on the phone with the cops he kicks my porch door and bust it. then picks up codys sit n spin that was outside (its a outside toy that sits two people in it big remind u) and throws it at my house. almost busting my windows... I WAS TICKED after this. i gave the cops all his info... i was ready for his ass to go to jail.. damn they didnt do shit cuz he wasnt here anymore... =/ SOOO after all that he comes and does like 5 donuts on my front road and ruins our yard... almost hits my car in drive way... ugh i hate him i really do i hate him... so tonight we get a phonecall at midnight "MAt i need some money i know its on ur card." SOOO MAt gets outta bed and goes to the atm?? WTF!!!! i am heated. and whocares cuz i aint no one... WHY cant josh get a job and take care of his own life? grow the fuck up why is baby brother taking care of u?? where are ur kids? why arent u taken care of them??? this is rediculous... i cant take it anymore. he is about to get a ppo so he cant come around here anymore. cuz this is ruining mine and mats relationship. whether or not mat owes him money we have RENT coming up! bills that have shut off notices... and cars with barely any gas in them! i am overrr it... yup i am...

we will see how long it last cuz i am not doing this anymore. Josh needs to get off his ass and be a man he thinks he is.. cuz he isnt to me.. he is a little boy

my first saturday class

So i had my first Saturday class and i was supperrrrrr nervous when i got there. My stomach got all gargly lol is that a word? But anyways i got in there didnt know what to do, walked around for a sec looking for the teacher! Well she comes in finally and says welcome this is what we are doing and then again i am like WTH? i dont understand whats going on everyone walks down to the floor and okay they are doing roll call. Well she calls a Jessica and i amlike me? im here.. and EVERYONE was looking at me. They werent even talking about me and i made a fool of myself. When they do roll call u tell them if u are going to be there all day or half day idk what to say no one tells me... lol.. well thats all over and i go back and work on my perm i was doing and she tells me i need to do theory withthem.. okay well i have already done haircolor BUT mrs bonnie SUCKS at teaching and when Ms Char was explaining stuff i understood so much more. altho before i got a 91% on my haircolor test i still felt like i was missing out on stuff. i was glad i got tosit in on that! Well after that i go back into the class room and finish my perm and i did good. i need to work on my parting which i already knew. Well then i had to blow dry and then i learned how to go figure 6 curls which are pretty simple. got half a head done and i straightened her hair and learned how to do a french twist and updo with it... i loveeed it i was soo proud of myself. then i learned how to french braid.. it all turned out to be a good day. i wasnt so nervous after a while and i liked it alot. well thats pretty much it! i had NOTHING to be affraid of... altho there are a few girls in there who u could tell thought they were better than i was! O WELL BITCHES ull never be better than me =)

My ring....

Okay... So today for lunch we decided we wanted to go to ritzies or however u spell it?! and i was messing with mats tattoo and i noticed OH MY the diamond and prongs to my ring was MISSING... hollllllyyyy crap i called my Oma(grandma) and told her cuz she is the one who gave me the ring and she was like ohh its okay... NO its not okay! I thought life was over, i havent taken that ring off since i go it.. So thank god i came home and found it in our bed. I took it to Kings Jewelers just cuz he is awesome and i take all our stuff there and he said it will take a week to ten days to fix... and for only thirty dollars.. thankkkk the lord... i am sooo happy i found it... lol.. other than that i am LOVING this weather... i think spring is springing.. im keeping my fingers crossed =)

this is getting on my nerves

Okay so i know this isnt for all the negitive stuff but i am getting soooo sicka nd tired of things. Like to the point as to where i dont wannabe here anymore. OR he needs to get a job. so we arent spending all this time together. something. but he had 4 and a half hours to clean up the house and all he did was start a load of dishes in the dish washer. this house is still a huge mess. what do i look like a bitch? friday i am supposed to get a few things done but i thin i am going to go look for a job. i cant just sit here and feell ike this. i am not going to move far away from my family if i am not sure things are going to work. i dont wannt leave him cuz i love him so much but i am not going to live like this forever.

seriously

So its not my fault u want to stay up all night and do whatever it is u do,but when cody wakes up why cant u get up? why do i keep having to get up? ive been sick cant i sleep? ugh..

Well the sun is out i am NOT sitting inside all day. im take cody n we are going outside. =)