this is getting on my nerves

Okay so i know this isnt for all the negitive stuff but i am getting soooo sicka nd tired of things. Like to the point as to where i dont wannabe here anymore. OR he needs to get a job. so we arent spending all this time together. something. but he had 4 and a half hours to clean up the house and all he did was start a load of dishes in the dish washer. this house is still a huge mess. what do i look like a bitch? friday i am supposed to get a few things done but i thin i am going to go look for a job. i cant just sit here and feell ike this. i am not going to move far away from my family if i am not sure things are going to work. i dont wannt leave him cuz i love him so much but i am not going to live like this forever.